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Today’s Weigh-In: 303.4 pounds
Next Goal: 295 pounds
Days to Go: 14
Pounds to Go: 8.4

I am reminded of something my friend and fellow weight loss / health blogger Billy said to me once: “Work hard to change yourself now, and when the time comes unless the best Will possible on the world.” I can’t remember if it was in an email or a comment here at my weight loss blog, so I may have mangled it slightly (or greatly), but the sentiment remains.

I feel that I’ve got so much awesome change – and the potential and desire for so much awesome change – going on in my life, that it’s easy for me to try and become better at everything all at once: health/weight, socially, professionally, personally, etc. And in doing so, I just end up spinning my wheels. And when I spin my wheels, I get nowhere. And in getting nowhere, I just get frustrated.

But when I take a step back, I come to the realization that there are some pretty important things I want to experience and become (forgive me for being somewhat vague). And for these parts of my life, becoming healthy (aka thin and strong) is by necessity a significant portion of the foundation that must be in place first.

At times (like today), it makes me consider becoming some kind of a health hermit until I reach all my related weight loss goals. Not that I would become completely anti-social (hard for an extrovert like myself), but that I would commit so specifically to changing this aspect of my life first and foremost that it would trump anything else for the next several months. Part of that would be to just be at the gym way more than random hangouts. Another part of that (HUGE part of that) would be the mental discipline to disengage from a lot of the superfluous or otherwise pointless (at this point) mental entanglements that can snag me so often.

Sure, it may not be just the very most exciting life, but if I’m thinking about the long term and creating the life I want to live instead of settling here at 300 pounds and all that goes with weighing three bills, it may be just the solution I need.

One Third of the Way Through My 21 Day Challenge

A week ago, I decided to give myself three weeks to lose 15 pounds (roughly) in order to weigh below 300 pounds for a quick weekend trip to see my family. I’m exactly on track for that. I needed to drop four pounds a week and have lost just that.

Although, I have to admit that I’m still pretty chapped about my mystery two pound weight jump yesterday. Yeah, I know that weight fluctuates and day to day weigh ins don’t matter as much as the long haul, but still – it irritates the fire outta me because I should be at a 301 right now and I’m a pound and a half up. The only thing I can figure is that someone must have spiked my peanut butter with a ridiculous amount of sodium.

Regardless, I should be satisfied that I’ve stuck to my plan and my word, worked hard the last week (the easy weekend notwithstanding), and dropped exactly the weight I needed to drop. However, finally being back in the swing of things and being so close to 299 makes it hard to be satisfied in anything else than that.