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Today’s Weigh-In: 316.4 pounds

Yeah, I’m calling it a full two months early. 2009 sucked the big one.

I got in a car wreck—that I caused— this summer for which I still might be on the hook for about three grand. Then I got laid off at the end of September. A small mountain of emails, a metric ton of resumes, and several weeks later I get word that my old job was hiring. I’m going back to work there next week, but only with a four month contract. But don’t get me wrong, I liked my old job and am very happy to be going back.

I’m not talking or complaining about all those external things, though. Yeah, they sucked and yes to one degree or another they could have been avoided entirely, but this year was garbage for one big reason for me: I gave myself two very clear goals in 2009 and failed to achieve either.

I was back home in Oklahoma last December for my sister’s wedding. I remember so clearly sitting in my favorite chair—my Great Uncle Guy’s wingback— sketching out ideas for a design business logo and thinking clearly about the year ahead. There were only two things on my mind: “Health &am; Wealth”

Health &Wealth and Not Much of Either

So here we are with less than sixty days left in the year and what do I have to show for myself? Not too damn much at all.

Looking at my last post of 2008, you’ll see I was 312 pounds. I weighed in at 316 this morning. And in a moment of self-disclosure, I haven’t been to 24hr Fitness since I badly sprained my ankle in August.

This week I’ve been getting back in the habit of the weight complexes. They may be brutal, but they don’t completely replace a strict weight training plan at the gym. Better than nothing, though.

And as for wealth – instead of actually getting my rear in gear, getting myself into the community, networking, filing the LLC paperwork, and hustling… I’ve sat around in typical ENFP Will fashion and daydreamed: about starting the business properly, about a Northwest tourism and travel site (Click and see how poorly that’s been worked on.), about my epic fantasy novel / worldbuilding project, about the Seahawks, about a hundred different things. And I’ve done nothing.

So yeah, 2009 sucked. And if I don’t take some lessons from it (very first instinctual guess – I need to learn focus and discipline), I’m going to be ending 2010 in the same way over 300 pounds.